Going With the Flow

Greetings everyone! I cannot believe it is Friday again already. Where did the week disappear to? I am still reeling from all the changes occurring in my life currently. I have no doubt I am also still feeling the vibes from the awesome Full Moon as well.

I have prided myself on being adaptable but, this time, I honestly am having difficulty adjusting. I can be change averse at times especially if I feel I have been forced and did not have complete control over said changes. But, I am so resilient and persistent that I have no doubt that I will get a handle on things very soon.

I am truly finding out what I am made of and I am always open to messages that the universe provides to confirm and validate my feelings and thoughts on the direction of my life. I have realized that in my quiet, my inner hearing is more powerful and poignant. And connection to others is so very important.

I had an awesome and beautiful discussion with my younger cousin yesterday that set me straight and then throughout last night and this morning, more messages were received confirming my new way of being and thinking.

In the past I have been guilty of making movements that I may not have been entirely sold on but took because of assumed obligations. I have a large family for which I have been the “breadwinner” for the entire time. I have never been in a situation where someone else was paying the majority of the bills in my house.

I realize that I have done a lot of things including remaining in places much too long, and gave people passes out of fear. Because of my past and the things that lie in my subconscious, I fear lack, I fear not knowing the “how”, I fear letting go and allowing flow.

But, in not allowing things to flow as the universe would have, I have created obstacles in my own journey and hindrances in my growth. It is a hard pill to swallow but, to get better, I have to acknowledge and move on and in a different manner. Einstein once said, “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.”

So, here I sit, uncomfortable in my new situation but determined to never look or move backwards. I have chosen to take more risks and to pursue things that I am passionate about . Sometimes we must bet it all! A friend used to say “the bigger the risk, the greater the reward. And I am so ready to receive!

In the meantime, I will be mindful in my decisions, continue to make strides daily so that I can live life on my own terms, doing worthwhile work, and go with the flow!

Peace,

Ashaki

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Strange Fruit

Greetings! I hope this post finds you well on this Thursday morning. I have not written about the never-ending atrocities of racism that my people continue to experience in quite some time. However, things will never change unless we speak about them and act upon them.

The Waffle House killer, Travis Reinking, was taken into custody a few days ago. And although his bond has been revoked, I can not help but to feel infuriated that this murderer was able to stay on the lamb so long and not have a hair on his pretty little head hurt. This case has white privilege written all over it! I feel the same way that I felt when Dylan Roof was taken to get some food by cops after his capture. In the words of an old friend—I am 38 hot!

The names of my people who have been killed at the hands of police officers in Amerikkka over years is absolutely staggering. According to the Washington Post, 68 African Americans have been killed by police this year thus far and in 2017, 223 were killed by police. And according to mappingpoliceviolence.org, black people are 3 times more likely to be killed by police than their white counterparts.

There is no arguing with data. And although I am an artist at heart, I also believe in the power of numbers. My point is that the so-called justice system is truly a “just-us” system. It has been created to protect the interests of those who have held power in this country since its inception. The killings by police is straight up modern day lynching.

So, excuse me if I do not want to hold hands and sing “Kumbaya”.  Amerikka has still not stopped harvesting “Strange Fruit”. May the families of the 4 victims of the Waffle House killer find some semblance of peace in their life. They have my eternal respect.

 

Peace,

Ashaki

Being in the Presence of Greatness

Greetings and Happy Saturday! Yo, I am still feeling high and not because I took part in any extracurricular activities involving herbs. Last night, I saw a dream of mine come true; I saw Eric B. & Rakim live in concert. I cannot tell you how it felt watching him rhyme, move about the stage, speak to the crowd. For once in my life, I was star-struck.

He and Eric B. took us down memory lane. We heard “Don’t Sweat the Technique”, “Move the Crowd”, among other signs. They ended with the classic “Paid in Full”. The energy in the room was essentially the essence of pure hip hop at its finest. Other hip- hop royalty was in the room as well- Greg Nice, Special Ed, and one of my favorite female emcees, Yo-Yo. Yo-Yo put on one hell of a show as well, opening for Eric B. & Rakim.

This night is one of those moments that you wish never ended; a life-altering experience that will forever be etched in my mind. Over the past few years, I have had the opportunity to be in the presence of some of my heroes. Now, I can add the god MC to my bucket list. The living legend truly doesn’t know how impactful his jewels have been to me over the years.

So, in the words of my grandmother, “I believe I can run on!”. That show fed my spirit as I knew it would. I keep telling ya’ll I’m a hopeless hip hop romantic. Anyway, let me get out of this house and let my “third eye shine like jewelry”……

 

Peace,

Ashaki

Dealing With Our S$@t & Living Life Authentically

Greetings! I hope this message finds you well, whether you are at work or at home. I am taking today to do some cleaning in my home, working on my book, and working on client packages. Busy, busy, busy. I also plan to do a long lovely session of yoga and meditation. I must do my self-care routines in order to maintain my disposition. I find that when I skimp on my exercise and meditation, I can become crabby, irritable, and extremely tense. Each day that I peruse my emails, I am inundated with articles about self-care.

Sometimes I feel like I am a living, breathing cliché- doing yoga, trying to eat well, wearing headwraps, burning incense, wearing crystals, talking about black empowerment. But, then I grab ahold of my righteous mind and realize that I am living the most authentic life that I can at this space and time. I found peace in living the way that I do now and I cannot stop, nor do I want to. If I want to sit topless in the moonlight, sip herbal tea, and listen to ocean sounds, that is absolutely my business!

Am I a bit eccentric? Maybe. One thing that I know for sure is that I am a lot happier and definitely am more balanced since I found my groove. Some may think it weird that I would rather sit and read, listen to Coltrane or Gregory Isaacs, and sage my home than to go out partying every weekend, but hey, that’s me. I think that in pursuing the activities that feed my soul authentically I am living my best life. There was a time that I struggled with anxiety and depression. I refused to speak to anyone about my inner struggles though. I was screaming inside, burning up from unfulfilled hope. I was absolutely miserable. It literally has taken me the better of 10 years to find my happy place. These days, I find great joy in the simplest of things- my 6-year-old reading a book to me, my friend telling me about their weekend, making videos on my coaching page, sharing a laugh with one of my patients.

We live in a world where people want quick fixes to everything, where cell phones and social media have replaced genuine interaction, and many have chosen to live their lives vicariously through their favorite celebrity. Dealing with our shit is not easy but it is necessary if you actually are aspiring to live life as you. The more we dodge the skeletons in our closets, the more they will pile up and eventually spill out onto the proverbial hallway floor.

It is my hope that you find the things that make you feel more alive and do them with zeal. Life is worth living. Make sure you are living yours to the absolute fullest…..

 

Peace, Love, & Abundant Light,

Ashaki

Suicidal Thoughts……

Peace, love, and abundant light everyone! Hope all is well with you. I decided to do something different today. I usually never pay attention to trending topics but I decided to just look at topics relating to life and what people were interested in, searching for, and in need of. I saw topics ranging from meditation to finding their life purpose. But, one topic that really struck a cord with me was the topic of suicide.

I did a little research and discovered some shocking facts. According to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention:

  1. Suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in the United States
  2. Each year 44, 193 deaths by suicide each year
  3. For every 1 suicide, there are 25 attempts
  4. There is an average 121 suicides a day

Now, you may be asking yourself, why is Ashaki talking about such a morbid topic? Well, would you have every guessed that I attempted to commit suicide twice in my life. As much as I speak about light, love, and the beauty of life, I know the darkness that life can hold. Each time when I made the decision to end my life, I felt that there was nothing left for me, that life had dealt me a terrible hand, and that the world would be better if I were no longer in it. How selfish and foolish I had been! I spoke ill over my own life. I mean I absolutely hated my life and could not see past my own pain and issues to see just how much I mean to others and how much impact my life could have on others.

I came to the realization that my purpose on this planet though not well known to me, was most definitely real just by the fact that I had been born. I began to nourish my soul through prayer, meditation, and by pursuing the things that make my soul sing. Writing became therapeutic, as did dancing, exercise, and listening to music. I spent time with friends. I spoke out about my issues and began to deal with things I had buried deep in the recesses of my mind years ago. I began to peel back the layers of protection I built up and get real. I cried, and cried, and cried. But, then I saw the resilience I have, I saw how I had successfully navigated really dangerous situations, extreme dysfunction, and at times unbelievable circumstances. I deliberately would say to myself “I love you “to myself until I believed it.

I never spoke of wanting to end my life for many years. I was embarrassed and I felt weak but then I realized that being able to not end my life was not embarrassing but it was an act of courage. I began to share my story with a few people and so many people have shared with me feelings of wanting to commit suicide, even attempts. The reward for me has been to here from someone that something I shared help them to make a different decision. It is my belief that if more people shared their story, more lives could be saved. To those who may have thought about ending their life, please know that your life matters and as long as you have a heartbeat, you have a purpose. Your life is not a mistake and though life can be daunting, it is still good. I truly believe that life is what you make it. Your perspective and your attitude towards life can literally determine how your days play out. Reflect on the great things in your life and think of the people who love you, care for you, who depend on you. You matter and your life is precious.

 

Hetepu,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali

New Additions!

Peace, love, and abundant light everyone! It has been a minute since I have had a chance to put my fingers to the keys and let go but here I am, on Friday the 13th nonetheless. Let me insert a disclaimer here: I do not view Friday 13th as a bad day, day of bad luck, or any of the other superstitions that exist in this world.

I received the most precious gift from my oldest Sun on September 28th in the form of a new grandsun and I am absolutely over the moon in love with him! Yes, you read that correctly—I am a Yeye, a nanny, a glam-ma lol and I am so overjoyed. I spent this past weekend with them and I literally sat in the nursery, rocking him, changing him, talking to him, and igniting his chakras with crystals—all the things a Yeye should do.

I have been meditating on the aspect of having a grandsun and I have come to the conclusion that I should continue to be as transparent and authentic as I am. He will find peace and love and joy within the confines of his Yeye’s home. I will teach him things that he will never hear in any classroom in America. He will be allowed to express himself honestly and without fear of being judged. I will strive to be the very best nana that I can possibly be.

I wrote a blog post about being a teenage mother not too long ago. I knew that it was a possibility of my becoming a grandmother in my 30’s. My life has been far from “normal”, whatever the hell that means. And I would not have it any other way.  I view life as a grand adventure- a time for us to experience things fully and this new life that we have been blessed with is yet another adventure and lesson for us all.  Life is a lovely circle, ever moving and expanding. Jaidan is another ring in our family’s circle……

 

Peace & Abundance,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali

Patience is Truly a Virtue

Peace, love, and light fam and Happy Friday! It has been a while since my last blog post but here I am nonetheless. The word for this week for me is P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E!! I have had my patience tested from all directions, been pulled this way and that, and felt like I had been raked across the proverbial coals. But, alas, I am still here, still found a way to smile, and successfully survived a very hellish week. So, one could say that I am #Winning! (Insert cackle here!)

I sometimes am unaware of how organized I am and how controlling I can be. I also experience high levels of anxiety when things are not flowing as I would like. But, as Super as I am , I am also still just a spirit having a human experience. I am introverted as well so I need my alone time. Being in the world can be a bit overwhelming for me and I feel like fleeing at times. And add to all of that the fact that I am a mother. Whoooosaaaahhhhh!!

I said all of that to say this, take every challenge as a lesson and grow from them. I have learned 5 major lessons this week:

  1. Plan for the unexpected.
  2. My time management skills need tweeking.
  3. Be grateful for the small things.
  4. Continue self care practices even in rough times
  5. Never ignore your gut instinct.

I know my list may seem random but trust me, everything that could have gone haywire (plan for the unexpected); time was not on my side but most of it was my fault for not planning properly; I still have a home to go to , awesome friends/family, a lovely spirit, and pure soul (small things); my shoulder is killing me because I have neglected doing yoga and my mind is scattered from not meditating, and lastly, all of the above could have gone differently if I had followed my first instinct.

Now everyone say “OMMMMMMMMM!” In the words of Russell Simmons, I am zen as fuck…..And more prepared to go into battle…….
Have an awesome weekend everyone and remember the word of the day is patience—patience is surely a virtue.

 

Au Revoir,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali

Her Life Mattered

Peace, love, and abundant light to all on this marvelous Monday. I am still adjusting to my new home, job, ventures, and return to the city. It is still somewhat surreal but I am thoroughly enjoying the process. I have been feeling like I need to speak on something for a while but I avoided the topic because I truly am still processing the harshness and atrocity of it all.

Bianca Roberson’s name has become known throughout the world because of her murder in a so-called instance of road rage. I have never quelled my words when it came to instances of outright racism. This case and her death is a bit personal for me as her father is a dear friend and confidante of mine. To see him on the news, the pain in his eyes, and the determination in his tone, and the story of her murder, I can only feel rage that this has truly hit home for me.

Bianca had a promising future that was snatched away by some Johnny Come Lately, who I honestly believe to have in his mind that her life was his to take because of an assumed level of superiority. I feel like the explanation given by authorities of this case being one of road rage is a cop out for yet another case of a white person feeling that they have the authority to take the life of any black person they see or encounter.

After he turned himself in, I took a good hard look into his eyes and saw nothing—no emotion, no remorse, no fear. His energy was one of not regret, but of indifference. He didn’t seem to give one care about the life he took and all of the people affected by his disgusting actions. And his look was the same of Dylan Roof and all of the others who chose to take the life of one of our own.

There is one thing that I know will not happen is I know my dear brother will not be on television speaking of forgiving this man. He wants justice on the highest level and I stand with him. Last Friday, her family had to lay her body to rest. I was not able to be present but I was there in spirit. I will travel to see them as soon as possible. I stand with all of the families of those who have been slain because of the hatred of another. And although I teach and live a spiritual lifestyle and speak on transforming a life, I am still fighting for my people and I always will. This fight has just begun and Bianca did not die in vain.

 

Hetepu,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali

Embracing a New Existence

Peace, love, and much light fam! Man oh man what a past few weeks has this been. I just moved to a different state this past weekend and I am still processing all that has happened. However, I am very excited for all that the universe has in store for my children and I. I have been super busy over the past month or so and I am enjoying every minute of it.

I wanted to come here and encourage each of you to begin to expect GREATNESS for your own life.  Do not be afraid of living life in a bigger way with a different experience than you ever have before. I admittedly have had to check myself today and yesterday due to me feeling thrown off about my new life. I am living a more affluent neighborhood. There are no liquor stores on every corner, there are no fast food restaurants on every corner, there is no loud music bumping through my neighborhood and guess what? It is absolutely fine for it not to be. I am realizing that I have to get used to a different experience if I want to have a different lifestyle. I am headed towards living my ideal lifestyle and I know and understand that my interactions and surroundings will change as a result.

I have come full circle in my life—once again. I am taking a huge risk once more. Taking risks has always garnered the greatest return. I am embracing the change and realizing my greatest desires in the process. I encourage you to grab life by the proverbial reins and pursue it with the greatest vigor that you can possibly muster. As I always say, life is to be lived. Live it abundantly!!

 

 

Hetepu,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali

I’m Launching a New Business!! #Excited

Peace fam! I hope you are enjoying this beautiful Sunday evening. I am currently sitting on the porch listening to Gregory Isaacs as I write this.  Today has been somewhat strange, yet invigorating to my spirit. Speaking with spiritual people, brings so much light to my spirit! Anyway, I wanted to informally announce my new business. I have literally talked myself out of this way too many times and now I am convinced that this is the time.

True Transformation Life & Health Coaching Services is a company dedicated to helping you find balance, light, and most of all, to assist you to live your best life yet by providing practical and insightful guidance from yours truly. I realize that I have been coaching people for years and it is high time that I share my gifts with the world. I am here to be of assistance and that is what I plan on doing. I am offering coaching packages as well as free gifts for subscribing to my email list. I will be doing free online workshops and talks as well, with much, much more to come in the future. So, if you have not taken time to subscribe to my YouTube channel, Chroniclez of a Lioness, or to this blog, of if you have not reached out to my online on FB or Twitter, please do so. I would love to connect with you!

May 1st is the launch date and I am uber-excited! If you want to learn how to restore the joy to your life, how to find peace in the midst of chaos, or even how I manage to keep smiling even when the storms are raging, stay tuned!! You can find out more about my business and services at www.ashakiali.com

 

Hetepu,

Ashaki Ma’at Mirembe Ali